What is going through my mind right now as the rain is slowly coming down, stopping and restarting. It is very peaceful to listen to the rain, and so relaxing knowing that i have nothing really on the agenda for the day. I had a few things to do but nothing really to important. I have to admit I like those days the best, knowing that you do not have to work just a nice chill day to dream, read a book or watch a movie. I know that not every one has days like that for some even a few moments of peace can be relaxing.
Now i ma not sure who may read this but for some reason my mind keeps drifting back to when I was in New Zealand, I feel it has a lot to do with the earthquakes that they have been receiving lately. Even some in a city where I served in a ministry. Or it might be cause I left a portion of my heart there when I went there for a missions trip and just feel in love with the country there and the people. I know I was there for only two months, but for some reason it felt like it was much longer but in a good way. I know that the memories and the friendships that I made will last a lifetime, but i wish there was so much more I could do.
That has been one thing that has been going through my mind as of lately. Some of the other things include a trip to Vietnam that I took in 2007, wow it has been 4 years since I left on that trip about this same time frame. What you may not have heard that I went to Vietnam. Let me put your troubled minds to rest. Now I went there for one month in the summer of 2007 for the month of July. It was a very rewarding trip, while I was there one of the things that I did was teach English in one of the schools. It was a team of us but we each had our own classrooms so we each a had a group of our own students to work with, sometimes for outings our classes would join together witch was totally neat.
Wow those students that i was working with became like a family to me… like they were a part of me almost like I was an older brother to them, not a teacher student relationship but more of a family connection. that is what I tried to make my class feel like, a family atmosphere. Wow forgive me as I get a little misty eyed remembering the memories. Not that you could see that. i might dedicate a whole blog to the students one day.
Anyway this has been another adventure of reading and looking into my life with Adam. Tune in next time to see where Adam takes us all next. And eys i do realize i was talking in third person there. Anyway I will talk to ya’ll later… Happy reading
I am in a sort of daze or wonder lately, I am not sure what is causing it . But even more so lately I seem to be questioning things that i have known for a while now. But on the flip side of the coin I have been receiving answers to questions that I have asked a while ago now, it is interesting how life does that to us. Now do not get me wrong the answers I have been receiving are not life alternating or changing per say in the present, maybe in the future but nothing to do with right now.
Some o the questions lately that I have been asking are more to do with right now, yet I have not been receiving an answer to those questions yet. Why does that happen at times? I have been praying about a few choices as well also, but yet to receive any clarification to that either. To make it more simply, I feel like I am on the TV show LOST. The more I watched of that show the more questions I had that had yet to be answered when the show was over. But yet different questions that i thought o all on my own have been answered. Grrr life is so darn confusing at times.
Where I am going with this, God is teaching and showing me so amazing things right now. Open so many doors that have yet to be discovered, yet here I am still in the present question things that have no eternal matter, if He cares enough about where the birds of the air, and the beasts of the field get food He is looking after me right? Those are some the questions that i have been dealing with, and for some reason my impatience is growing really thin. I am still patient when it comes to other things but not when it comes to what God is trying to teach me. I am willing to listen if someone has a clue to as to what i am still suposed to be doing here. Do not get me wrong , I am very happy to be in Omaha, i have a amazing suport group of friends and someone special in my life.
But I also know He has called me to a bigger scope of international missions, yet it seems like right now that door is closed. So prayer for that would be epic. I know i am complaining a little bit about this but hey my blog, you choose to read it, feel free to offer feedback. And I will be open to look into any info that you offer. But this is what is going on in my mind as of right now. Just thought I would share. And remember happy reading and talk to ya later Adam
A very interesting thought crossed my mind. A group of bloggers are normally people who want to be writers or a group of people with a lot of random thoughts. Now with that being said,I would have to say I am a little of both groups. At times I have a lot of interesting things to say, not that I have a large group of readers, but I do like to write. It is a hidden passion that i normally do not share with that many people. At times though I would say I am in the second group, a random wonder.
I have said before even “if that makes sense to someone amazing, now what did I just write”. A lot of what I write just comes naturally. Not to much thought goes into it, but at times sometimes what I write is very deep and profound, to really make someone think. So that leaves the question who reads the blogs and do they really have that much time? Yes I know some famous authors have blogs, why cause they now what they write in the blog may never get published. What they may not realize though is they are quoted more lately from there blogs verse a book. I would love to hear a thought or a moment of what I wrote quoted one day, will that ever happen who knows. Maybe within the smaller circles of who may read what I write but most likely it will be read and forgotten. Not passed on and not shared.
How sad would I be if that never happened? Not very, but I realize that someone out there does care, and they may even one day admit they read my blog. Without me mentioning it first. But who am I kidding that will never happen. Does that put a lot of faith in my blog? Not much but when you are reaching a mast universe, but with maybe 3 people reading this who knows. Not that I am putting down my readers, i am greatfull for all my readers who do read this and take something away from it.
In closing, let me leave you with this word of thought keep the door open for any innovation, cause you never know when the next major newspaper is going to come along and pick up your blog and you receive a paycheck. And no that has not happened yet. But the dream is still alive.
Each and every day is a new adventure to say the least. Even if we have a detailed schedule the smallest thing can through us off. How many times though do we look for those moments and then they never come? Or where we to busy looking for them and we just happened to have missed that moment. Due to the fact that it may have been something else all along.
The truth is those moments are always all around us. And what we decide to do with those moments is up to us. It is interesting that after you type something that you are not even sure if it will make sense, but to someone else it makes the most. Random but that is what I was thinking at the moment when I typed it. The power of the blog…. that would be an interesting title to something hmm might have to keep that one in mind.
While I know this one is more scatter per say then some of my more recent ones it is due to the fact that is my brain right now. A real scatter confusion of a lot of interesting thoughts and ideas all going through my mind. Some staying and some going.
Well until next time happy reading and take care.
I wish there were words to express how I have been feeling. But I feel like it may be to late for words. Actions have only gone so far also, so many times the door has been opened just to be slammed shut. I wish I could take a look at my life through another set of eyes.
What would that look like to ask God for me to see my life through His eyes? Not just the way I see my life. It is possible to ask God to see others hearts through His eyes, but what would that look like through my eyes to see my own life? Would I like the outcome, the end results? I know it sounds like I am complaining about my life but in reality I kind of am.
Now don’t get me wrong, God has dome some amazing things in my life. Has opened a lot of doors for me to go through, to see a glimpse of His plan for my life. Yet at the same time a lot of doors have been closed right in front of me. At this point I am not sure what His plan for my life is.
Those are a few things that have been going on in my mind lately. Now I am very happy I am working , and I have some really good friendships. At the same time I know that there is something out there for me that I have to discover. Something that God has yet to show me, but I am really curious as to what that may be.
So in closing I know that God has a plan for my life, i wish i could see my life through His eyes. And that no matter what I may go through that God is right here beside me every step of the way. And that I have friends and family to help guide me along also. Thanks for reading and take care… Adam D