Well such is life

Very interesting title for a blog, yes I would agree on that point. So the question that remains is why would I the author of such blog, choose that thought for the title? To be perfectly honest here, I am not sure why I chose that title. I could not think of anything else at the time that would for the title. That in no way means I am not going to mention some of the unfairness of life, and how I wish things could change to remedy that. But I have done such blogs like that before in the past. Does that mean a thought is roaming around in my head? Not for sure, this might be interesting .

To be honest with my readers life right now has given me a chance to once again evaluate my life. To see if I am making the right choices, to see where I am headed. A few things have happened in my life over the past few weeks to give me such a chance. Now I am not going to go through that list and expose everything here. Not this time anyway, maybe in a month or so. It has been a while since I have blanked out on what to write, that is not a bad thing, it is interesting. But wait is there hope coming from the horizon, is that  a  bright light leading me home? Or is it a different direction I am supposed to be headed.

Did I just really share that last thought? Wow ok just to clarify on that, it is for a novel of sorts I am working on. I have both windows open. But maybe there is some truth behind the written word.  I am not sure how the pro writters do this type of work, with deadlines and people yelling at them to get there work done. I have a lot of respect of that group. I think one day i might be included, but that is a dream, I will be lucky if anybody even reads this. But anyway, I am not trying to put down my writer skills, but I know that this was not one of my favorite things to do in high-school and college. Now though it seems as if this is all I want to do. If it is something short and to the point or deep and makes you think to just ramble, kinda like this one I am typing up now. Well Happy Reading for now Adam

Great Movies Hollywood is allowed to remake

So after much thought and consideration I have come to the two movies Hollywood is allowed to remake. Now I may get an angry response of these two movies. You will have to see for your self.

 

02.- Cool Hand Luke-1967- Paul Newman, George Kennedy, and Strother Martin. Director Stuart Rosenberg.

Dream cast- Brad Pitt, Michal Clark Duncan, and Anthony Hopkins. Director Coan Brothers, Or Gerard Butler, Duane Johnson, and Robert De Niro. Same Director

Luke Jackson is a cool, gutsy prisoner in a Southern chain gang, who, while refusing to buckle under to authority, keeps escaping and being recaptured. The prisoners admire Luke because, as Dragline explains it, “You’re an original, that’s what you are!” Nevertheless, the camp staff actively works to crush Luke until he finally breaks. After I saw a few of the Coan Brothers latest movies, I feel like they could pull a movie like this off. I know it is one of America’s good movies, but I feel it needs a update.

1.Adam’s Rib-1949- Spencer Tracy, and Kathrine Hepburn Director George Cukor

Dream Cast, Tom Hanks, and Meg Ryan(reboot her movie status) Director Steven Speilberg

When a woman attempts to kill her uncaring husband, prosecutor Adam Bonner gets the case. Unfortunately for him his wife Amanda (who happens to be a lawyer too) decides to defend the woman in court. Amanda uses everything she can to win the case and Adam gets mad about it. As a result, their perfect marriage is disturbed by everyday quarrels…  Yes I know it would be a shame to see this remade, but at the same time if it is done proper it would be a huge finical success, for everyone involved

Great Movies Hollywood is allowed to remake

Now some of the choices in this top three may anger or upset some of you.  The top 2 will come tomorrow. But this is my vote keep that in mind. Granted I may not have the cast picked out yet but I will throw around a few ideas.Just remember my dream my blog, do not like it HA do something about it, write your own in response.

05- The Sting- 1973- Paul Newman and Robert Redford, Director- George Roy Hill— My dream cast Matt Damon, George Clooney- Director Robert Redford, or Steven Soderbergh

Have the same story line as the orginal. Same setting  to 1930’s Chicago.When a mutual friend is killed by a mob boss, two con men, one experienced and one young try to get even by pulling off the big con on the mob boss. The story unfolds with several twists and last minute alterations.

04- The Wizard of OZ- 1939- Judy Garland, Ray Bolger, Frank Morgan, Bert Lahr, Marget Hamilton, Jack Haley— Director Victor Flemming— My dream cast– Dorthy- unknown actress about 12-14 Scarecrow- Sean Hays, Tin Man -Hugh Jackman, Cowardly Lion- Nathan Lane- Wizard-Kelsey Grammar- Wicked Witch, Idina Menzel– Director- Unknown

In this charming film based on the popular L. Frank Baum stories, Dorothy and her dog Toto are caught in a tornado’s path and somehow end up in the land of Oz. Here she meets some memorable friends and foes in her journey to meet the Wizard of Oz who everyone says can help her return home and possibly grant her new friends their goals of a brain, heart and courage.

03- The Shootist -1976- John Wayne, James Stewart, Richard Boone, Ron Howard, Lauren Bacall, Hugh O Brian,– Director Don Siegel,  Dream Cast–Kevin Costner, Sam Elliott, Zach Effron,Meryl Streep, John C Reilly, John Cusack—Director Unknown

John Bernard Books, a gunfighter approaching his 58th birthday, finds that he has rectal cancer and two months to live. He takes a room with Bond Rogers and her son, Gillom, to wait until death comes. Of course, his very presence starts off events in the town. The Marshal comes, prepared to die in a shootout, Gillom tries to idolize him, Bond first is disgusted and then pities him. Then, realizing that he will die in great pain, he comes up with an idea to go out with a bang. If this movie ever truly does get remade I will protest beyond all believe. I thought that this would be a great cast to do it.

Great Movies Hollywood Should never remake

I am very excited about a few things in y life, a few things I would even say I am passionate about. One of those such things are movies. Now wait do not give up on this blog yet… I can see it in your eyes.” Great all he is going to talk about is John Wayne”, false well sorta. This blog is going to be more about movies that Hollywood should never remake. There is going to be one John Wayne movie listed. There will be about five  movies all together. I will give a brief history of the movies, who stared, who directed and when they came out, and a little about them. So be prepared for the adventure if you can handle it. A follow up idea will be five  movies that they should remake. You might be surprised by that list. And yes I did use an outside source to help me .

05.” The Quiet Man”– 1952- John Ford Director Two main stars John Wayne, and Maureen O’ Hara , with Victor McLaglen

Set in 1920s Ireland, Sean Thornton (John Wayne), an Irish-born American from Pittsburgh, returns to Ireland to reclaim his family’s farm in Innisfree. He meets and falls in love with the fiery Mary Kate Danaher (Maureen O’Hara), the spinster sister of the bullying, loud-mouthed landowner “Red” Will Danaher (Victor McLaglen). Danaher, angry that Sean outbid him for the Thornton land adjacent to his property, initially refuses to sanction the marriage until several town locals, including the parish priest, conspire to trick him into believing that the wealthy Widow Tillane (Mildred Natwick) wants to marry him, but only if Mary Kate is no longer living in the house. After learning the truth on Sean and Mary Kate’s wedding day, an enraged Will refuses to give his sister her full dowry. Then Wayne ends up fighting the brother in-law. You will have to see the movie to see how it ends. I it, one of my all time movies.

04. It’s a Wonderful Life–1949–James Stewart, Donna Reed, Lionel Barrymore, Henry Travers, Thomas Mitchell, Ward Bond, Gloria Grahame – Director -Frank Capra

George Bailey has so many problems he is thinking about ending it all – and it’s Christmas! As the angels discuss George, we see his life in flashback. As George is about to jump from a bridge, he ends up rescuing his guardian angel, Clarence. Clarence then shows George what his town would have looked like if it hadn’t been for all of his good deeds over the years. Will Clarence be able to convince George to return to his family and forget suicide?  Need we really say any more as to why this should never be remade? James Stewart’s first movie since being released from service from World War 2.

03. The Godfather-1972- Marlon Brando, Robert Duvall, James Caan, Al Pacino. Director Francis Ford Copala.

Francis Ford Coppola’s epic masterpiece features Marlon Brando in his Oscar©-winning role as the patriarch of the Corleone family. Director Coppola paints a chilling portrait of the Sicilian clan’s rise and near fall from power in America, masterfully balancing the story between the Corleone’s family life and the ugly crime business in which they are engaged. This is just the first part mind you, there were two more that followed. I am just basing this on the first.

02. The Goonies-(1985)–Sean Astin, Josh Brolin, Jeff Cohen, Corey Feldman, Kerri Green, Martha Plimpton, Jonathan Ke Quan, John Matuszak and Anne Ramsey- Director Richard Donner.

Mikey Walsh and Brandon Walsh are brothers whose family is preparing to move because developers want to build a golf course in the place of their neighborhood — unless enough money is raised to stop the construction of the golf course, and that’s quite doubtful. But when Mikey stumbles upon a treasure map of the famed “One-Eyed” Willy’s hidden fortune, Mikey, Brandon, and their friends Lawrence “Chunk” Cohen, Clark “Mouth” Devereaux, Andrea “Andy” Carmichael, Stefanie “Stef” Steinbrenner, and Richard “Data” Wang, calling themselves The Goonies, set out on a quest to find the treasure in hopes of saving their neighborhood. The treasure is in a cavern, but the entrance to the cavern is under the house of evil thief Mama Fratelli and her sons Jake Fratelli, Francis Fratelli, and the severely disfigured Lotney “Sloth” Fratelli. Sloth befriends the Goonies and decides to help them.  Great childhood memory movie, one that should never be remade.

01-Top Gun -1986- Tom Cruise Kelly McGillis, Val Kilmer, Anthony Edwards, Tom Skerritt, Tim Robbins, Meg Ryan. Director– Tony Scott

Maverick is a hot pilot. When he encounters a pair of MiGs over the Persian Gulf, his wingman is clearly outflown and freaks. On almost no fuel, Maverick is able to talk him back down to the Carrier. When his wingman turns in his wings, Maverick is moved up in the standings and sent to the Top Gun Naval Flying School. There he fights the attitudes of the other pilots and an old story of his father’s death in combat that killed others due to his father’s error. Maverick struggles to be the best pilot, stepping on the toes of his other students and in a different way to Charlie, a civilian instructor to whom he is strongly attracted.– A lot of people will be shocked at my number one choice here. Believe me I was as well, but I will give credit where credit is due.

I called You answered

Each and every time I want to run away and loose my self. You still remind me of who I am. You tell me once again who I am to You. From the very start of time You had a plan for my life, at times when I am scared or confused You remind me that I belong to You.

The enemy knows the weakness that we have, but yet with Your strength that Only You provide we can over come. We need to guard our minds and our hearts each and every day, so that we will be strong in the eyes of the Lord. The bible says that The spirit is willing but yet… BUT YET the flesh is weak. Not very encouraging. But how can overcome this? How can we strengthen the flesh? Our spirit and our flesh need to be in one.

One of the many ways to do this is to know that we need to daily, not once a month, not every Sunday but Every Day we need to present our bodies to the Lord and say today this shell is Yours. Let me be the vessel that You created me to be. Let my words when I open my mouth be Your words spoken through me. Let me help encourage others and not put others down. Let me be a light in the city. Let my dream be re new, let me put aside what dreams I may have but instead let my dreams be the dreams that You have given me.

I want to get back to the focus of the matter , the focus of Your heart, and that is for the lost people. There are more then just those across the oceans that need to be saved. What about my neighbors right down the street? My friends who may not know You? At one point in my life, You called on me and I answered, but it sees there are more times when I called on You, You faithfully answered me each and every time. My eyes have been blinded to what I wanted to see, to not see the plan that You have in front of me.My dream is more of a future dream, I need to focus on the present right in front of me. My desire will still be towards that future dream, but with the help of others, and encouragement from You I can stay where You need me to be focused.

Encouragment

Here I am broken and humbled before Your throne. I come before You lost and blind. Here am I offering a heart that is open and willing to seek You more. My eyes can see the truth that comes from You. For I am not lost in the waters of life because I seek You, the One who gave it all for me to stand.

Let my eyes only be focused on what You are offering to me. Let Your word be a map, guiding me along the journey of life. Psalms 119:105—-“Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.” Your words are encouraging and helpful. They do not bring pain and suffering. Isiah 35:3-4–“Encourage the exhausted, and strengthen the feeble.Say to those with anxious heart,“Take courage, fear not.Behold, your God will come with vengeance;The recompense of God will come,

But He will save you.” They bring healing and a sense of peace. Romans 16:20–“The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.”

For without You nothing can be accomplished. Let me praise and worship You more. Allow me to dive into Your word, as if it is the first time reading it. Show me encouragement in Your word to pass on to others. Allow me to be the servant who is called by You to do greater things. Isaiah 40:28-31 “Do you not know? Have you not heard?The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, And to him who lacks might He increases power.Though youths grow weary and tired,And vigorous young men stumble badly, Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired,They will walk and not become weary.”

Writer Ideas?

When I need the thoughts to be there, they never are. And for some reason when I want to write or blog about an idea, the thoughts are not there again.What does that really mean as a writer? I am not suffering through any type of writer block. I am just not as in tune as to what to write about, a few thoughts could go along way. But if there is no thoughts to start where do you start?

So what am I trying to ask through this adventure for this blog? What are some ideas as you the readers would be interested in reading about? I have a vast knowledge of different topics, we could even do a theme idea. But first we need to get a few of those ideas to be shared. I might even be able to comd up with a prize of sorts, for the person who comes up with the best blog idea for me to write on. But at the same time if you are a writer then why would you want to share your own thoughts? Consider it more of a topic thought. Happy Reading Adam

Rain

The rain brings on different aspects. On one side it is refreshing, and relaxing. You almost need a blanket, hot cup of coco, and a movie.On the other side looking at it from a different perspective, the rain is starting over. Now what I mean by that is simply this, The rain of spring brings life to everything that was covered by the death of winter. It brings a fresh start, flowers to smell grass to run through, and water for the lakes streams and rivers. The rain of summer, helps grow the plants that farmers and others spend so much time growing, so that way we can have good healthy vegetables. The rain of summer is also in association with storms, Storms can be both good and bad , the waters will rise and flood, but storms can be a gentle reminder that we are not alone in the world. When it storms, I think of the storms of life. All the trials we go through but we still come up stronger then we were before. The rains of the fall, bring comfort a sense of peace. A reminder that our past is being washed away, that we will have a chance to start over again. Happy Reading Adam

The past is behind you , as you move  towards the future which  is hard to reach. The past tries to hold on with everything that it has. Reminding you of past hurts and failures. Not letting you believe in your dreams. Holding you captive and not letting loose. The future looks untouched bright and clear.Almost as if it’s reaching out but the past still holds you down. Keeps dragging you away from the light. You reach for the light but are you ready to come into the light? Ready to be exposed and seen for who you really are?

At this point the darkness seems better the shadows keep you safe, or so you think. But the more you hide the further away you seem, not wanting to be around anyone or any body who cares for you. If you are around them, you wear a mask, because of how ashamed you are. You claim to be ok but who can you trust? Will people still trust you, even those who are closest? Or will they turn and walk away. The darkness is colder and more alone then you have ever felt before, you feel so down, you just want to give up. You see the phone lying next to you, but you do not reach for it. Instead you think one more drink that will help, your pain is buried deep.

But then out of the corner of your eye, you see a book. You wonder why this book is here and how it happened to survive. You start to reach for it, but you are ashamed, you do not feel worthy to open this book. Keep in mind that at one point, this book offered peace comfort and strength. But now you sense non of that. Those few close friends have still not given up, but they do not see the pain that is buried deep inside. They are not aware of the inter demons that you are struggling with. You are tired of feeling alone, not having a future. Not one that you can see anyway. It hurts you more knowing that you are bringing others down by feeling this way. Your mind starts to wonder to that spot again, you hate to feel this way. That job you had was a form of escape if only for a few hours, but then you lost that. That happens when you do not care about anything anymore.

As you reach towards your drink to ease the pain away, you notice a note in the corner of your eye. It had been months since you last read that note, you are just not sure anymore about anything. But it did offer a peace if only for a while. The note went something like this ” Dear You’,

“I have known you for many years now, and you know how much I love you. I have been there with you through the best of times and the worst. I am sorry to hear about the job, but I know also that you are stronger then this. You have helped me out when I was at my worst, and have been that best friend when I have been at that point also over the years. You have much more potential then you realize. I wish you could only see the ‘True Colors” that are within you that I see. You know that I am always available to talk, it does not matter when, you mean the world to me. You are one of my closest friends. You gave me a friendship when  I needed it most many years ago, if it was not for you I would not be able to write this letter today. I love you and always will.”

As you re read that letter, that once meant hope, you wondered if it was to late to reach out. You reach for your phone, as you start to do that you notice a knife on the other side. You decided to call the friend and talk to them, let them know what has been going on. But then another thought crosses your mind, if you did end your own life, no one would be effected by it. It might almost be better for everybody involved. It had been a few months since you last talked due to the business of life. But you still take the gamble.The phone starts to ring, will someone answer or are they working. This is your last resort, at this point the only friend who has not given up on you. The phone goes to voice mail, you hear an encouraging voice on the other side. But it is to late.

You start to slide the knife across your wrists, there is a small amount of blood. At this point you do not care, you have a bigger gulp to ease the pain as you dive the knife deeper across the wrists. The blood starts to slow down, but there is still the need to end this life. You want to reach for your phone again, but you can not, you’re just numb. You reach the knife up to your neck. How hard can this really be, you start to question the thought. You slide it across your neck not edging it in yet. Just sliding it across, you have already lost a lot of blood as it is, the drink is starting to wear off. You reach for the bottle this time, and finish it. The pain is gone once again, the knife is still in your hand.  You drive the knife into your throat. You take your final breath of air. It is over, now more pain, no more sorrow, or so you think.

Your friends try to call, no answer, they get worried they come over to your house no one’s home or so they think. Your parents get a hold of your friends, no one has heard from you in a week, people are worried. Your friends go over again, this time with the police to check this out. As they reach the door a smell beyond all believe is escaping. They break the door open and there you are lying there in all the blood. The cops call your family to inform them. No one knew how hurt you really were. They find your phone, after you tried to call your friend, they did call back. But your phone was on vibrate you did not hear amongst all the tears. They also find a note. You wanted to get your last words out there.

” I am sorry to any one and everyone by living my life, I know that it was not meant to be from the start. I am sorry to have inflected so much pain into your lives, I see now that life was not worth living. Tell my parents I am sorry or not being the child, that I thought I would be, or ever achieve the goals they wanted me to. I was just tired of living the life, I am sorry.”

In no way is this a personal reflection about how I feel. I just feel that there are more people hurting out there then we realize. What are we doing to reach out? To offer that friendly advice, to be there when they need some one at there weakest and strongest moments. I have been at this point in my life, and so have some close friends. But never again do I feel alone, like I did at that point in my life. I am sure that in some way we can all relate, but lets reach out more to one another more. And truly mean it. My challenge for those who may read this, try and reach out to someone that you normally would not talk to, someone who may be different then your self. You may never know what will happen when you reach out. Happy Reading Adam.

Forgivness and Trust, Friendship

The time has come once again. I am not sure where this blog is headed direction wise, or even thought pattern at this point. It could turn out to be a happy blog, sad blog, or even a new turn a angry blog. I just have a lot of thoughts building up inside for some reason. I have not been as motivated to write though and get my thoughts out onto my blog.  I wish the words for as to why the motivation is not there would flow more easy but sadly it is not. For some reason also a lot of questions keep going through my mind as well. I am going to try and explain and get everything out there but it may seem hard to do, I wish my mind would just be able to slow down and just take a nice relaxing breath of fresh air. Oh the dreams we dream, it is not like my life is that complicated more then others. And I do not go out and look for drama, just to seem more normal.I just very over think every situation and seldom see the good, I tend to see the negative outcome before trying to or even attempting to think of the good. Not always my mind just seems to wonder in that general direction

Wow ok so this blog better have a happy ending, I was just thinking that same thought as I re read some of what I already wrote. But in all seriousness it is interesting to me, how often I seem to not see the truth or for that matter how open I am to trust. Is part of that due to how I was raised? By no means am I saying that is a bad thing, but what I am saying is I have never truly lived my own life. It seems like any choice that I have made is more based on what other people think, or even what there thoughts are. It is ok to ask for someone else opinion, but for seem reason I have a hard time trusting my own instinct. I seem to go to others for all the little things, or really anything. Part of that is due to my personality, but I am still unsure as to where it comes from. Granted small choices or decisions I may not always ask, but for anything big or something that may have lasting effect in my life. By no means am I trying to put my self down, I am just stating the truth of the matter.

Speaking of the truth, that is something that is hard for me to accept. I know that there are a lot of areas of my life where I struggle. That is one of them, I am more worried about not hurting the other person that I tend to let things build up. To the point where I end up hurting the trust factor with them, or even worse loosing that friendship. That is why it is hard for people to tell me the truth also, they are not sure as to how I will respond. I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeves for everybody to see that I am hurting, but I do not always open up and tell them the truth, I lock them away to the point where I start to question friendships. I have done that with those who are my closest and also the newest. That is part of the reason why I started my blog, to be able to express my emotions, and get my thoughts out there. It may not always seem like it but in reality I am ginune happy person. I have just always had the questioning look on my face or when I am with someone. Can I trust this person, will they hurt me, will I be able to forgive them? Those are some of the questions I am dealing with each and every day. Does this lack of trust come from the past? I have moved on from that point, but I still have those questions going through my mind. I know that every human will let me down. But it is up to me to forgive them and accept them back into my life. That is sometimes harder to do depending on how real or how deep the relationship is. But there is still forgiveness there.

My identity is in the One who created me. And He lived the perfect example that we all try and strive for each and every day. He forgave even those who put Him on display for death. And still welcomes them home. He does not remember the past wrongs that they do, He knows there hearts. Let me live my life as more of an example of the way that He lived. Let me forgive those who hurt me in the past, and welcome them back into my life with open arms. The pain may still remain, but there is love to be achieved. A fresh start, to a friendship that was once there. The trust may take sometime to welcome, but it will happen over time. Let me see all my friends the way God does. He does not look at our live like we are useless and no good. He looks on us with love and compassion, forgiveness and healing. He does not care about our outer shell and neither do I, He cares more about our hearts, and that is what I am going to try and do each and every day. I may still slip, but if God is willing to give me a second chance are you as well?

In my closing thoughts, I just want to offer an apology to anyone that I may have hurt, with or without thinking about it. It was not my intentions to loose a friendship or loose a trust that was once there. So I ask for your forgiveness. And to those who may have hurt me either in the past or present or future. I just wanted to let you know as well that You are forgiven, I know it was never your intention to hurt me on purpose. I just hope and pray that the friendship is still there. Happy Reading, Adam