Where do I go from here?

So I must admit something to start with, first of all I am sorry about my lack of blog activity for those who may read every once and a while. It seems that with as much time as I have had to write I would have wrote maybe 3 or 4 if not more by now. But oddly the blog ideas have not been flowing as much or as easily. I think it was a writer block, but I have had those before but never for almost a whole month. I think that it might be something else, more to do with my psyche, but I am not for sure. Maybe my spiritual journey has also been off track so that may have contributed to my lack of writing.

I have always said that my gift of writing does not come from me but from God, now I have just recently liked to write as much as I do. Try to get me to do something like this when I was in college or for that matter try and come up with a 200 hundred word paper forget about it lol. Now I am lucky most of my blogs are over 800 lol. I think my previous English teacher Ms Kelsey would be happy but kind of scared about my new found joy of writing. But at the same time writing has calmed me  down, i have been able to focus more on other things. I find my self writing all the time. Is this something I should look into maybe pursue? I am not sure any feed back on that would be greatly encouraged. I know I mentioned something about going back to school but I always thought that was for cooking not for writing. But then again maybe I am wrong.

I think the question that I am most struggling with right now is where do I go from here? In regards to my writing mainly what topics or something of interest that would like to be covered? I am sometimes great about coming up with ideas as well. But lately I have had nothing, I am hoping that this blog will be the key to unsnapping my dry spell in  regards to writing. But then again only time will tell. As a writer it is interesting to look back at previous works that I have done already and wonder what I can do to improve them. I think that is a good sign  right? Grrrr I hate having all these questions and no answers. That is my thoughts on the topic anyway and I am sticking with it for now lol. Happy Reading, Adam

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Leap of Faith

“There are many talented people who haven’t fulfilled their dreams because they over thought it, or they were too cautious, and were unwilling to make the leap of faith.” James Cameron said that quote, but if you think about what that quote is saying how much more of a truer image or mindset do you need? When was the last time that you truly believed in something, but did not give up on that 1thing? When was the last time you took a huge leap of faith into the unknown?

In the clip in which I am going to show here in a moment the charcter “Indiana Jones,” is stuck in the same type of situation. He is on a quest to find the holy grail. And along the way he has some choices to make. He knows that he needs to take the first step. But what if he fails, what if he lets down those who are counting on him? That is what faith is all about believe in the unknown. Latter I will have another clip to help explain that more. Here goes the first clip http://youtu.be/xFntFdEGgws What were some of the thoughts, and emotions going through your mind as you saw that clip? Well if you are a guy reading this, your thoughts might refer back to,” I want that type of adventure, when will it be my turn”. For the ladies that see this clip they might be thinking, “when will I find a guy brave and heroic like that?”

That is not the direction in which I am going to lead this though, the original thought is about taking a leap of faith. So back to that, what are some of your dreams? What are you doing to accomplish some of those dreams? What are some of the fears that try and hold you back? What is it going to take to get you to take that first step? As for me, some of my dreams are to be able to back to the international missionary field.  One of my biggest fears is what is stopping me?Another fear is going back to college, I know thought that might be the first step in that direction thought. Or a better way to word it, what if the door does not open for me? Would I be content enough to remain “state side”? I am going to take that leap and apply to go back to school in August.

But this brings up a very interesting point, what if God gives us the opportunities and we do not see them as a leap of faith? We just think that is where we do not belong so therefore we are afraid, to embrace and take a stand. And even take that giant leap. Here is a clip to explain what I mean,

What am I trying to say though all of this. What I am trying to say is do not be afraid to take that first step. God is still going to be with you of course, but it is up to you. So like I said before what is stopping you? Bruce Springsteen wrote a song called “Leap of faith”, here is part of the chorus—“It takes a leap of faith to get things going It takes a leap of faith you gotta show some guts It takes a leap of faith to get things going In your heart you must trust”. Happy Reading Adam, Remember to always take that leap of faith, you never know what doorsor opportunity might be open due to that first step. That is where it all starts one step.

At times

For some odd reason the past few days I have had two songs going through my head. Almost as if the shuffle button is broke, and the two songs are similar but so apart.

The first song is called Fix You, it is by a band called ColdPlay. The lyrics are very haunting, but in a way a encouragement. Here are the lyrics to the song.

“Fix You”

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

What are the lyrics really trying to say to us? To me they are saying do not be afraid to take a risk every now and again. Your friends will be there to help guide you back on track. You will get motivated to try again, but do not give up on your dreams. Or to look at it from a totally obscured view point. Think of the lyrics as God is telling us I will try to meet you. We learn from our mistakes but that does not mean that we should give up our dreams.Tears stream down our face could either represent happy or sad. happy because of over whelmed joy. Or sadness do to over whelmed loss. Keep in mind that what I am writing is just my own opinion. Lyrics do have a unique way of catching up to us as well.

The second song that I would like to compare is a song by The Fray.  Now granted there are so many songs that I could have blended or mixed together. Near the end of the blog I will try and sum up why I choose these two songs to start with. The song is called “How to save a life”.

This song means so much to me, and within my own circle. Now what clearly could I have meant by that? Well here are the lyrics maybe that will help.

How to save a life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How many times do we question that thought? We encounter so many people in our day to day life’s that how do we know who is really hurting and who is not? I have been there with a few friends asking that same question,now I do not think it is just talking about a death of a friend. I feel like it may also be referring to a friendship as well. Sometimes us just being there could mean so much more then we could even imagine. I know that even I have felt so lost where if it had not been for a few select friends I would not be here. A few years latter I did save a life. Told them my story, they opened up to me as to where they had been, little did I know that close to 10 years latter they would be a close friend still.
Just being open to talk and just be there can mean much more then you or I could even come close to imagining. With the first song “Fix You”, why should we try and fix someone unless they need the help? They need to sometimes be the one to take the first step towards the lights. But rest assured we will be there to help them along. It may take them to be on there last breath, before they admit that they need help or a close group of friends that deeply care.
For ” How to save a life.” Just be there for them, be open and available. If you say your phone is always on, show them if they call up in the middle of the night not saying anything. Just assure them that you are there. My phone is always on for the very reason in which I mentioned.
If anyone who reads this needs a friend, someone to listen I am always available. I may not always have the answers, but I will stand by you. I will catch you if you start to fall. Even if you just need to know that you are not alone. Happy Reading, Adam

Reflection

I know a while  ago I did a year in review month by month. It is interesting how much reflection can truly come from that. Something else that I have been reflecting on is the interesting concept, of how much my life truly has been changed over the year. But at the same time, how the world has changed around me without me noticing it.  Not that anything like that has personal merit towards me, but just the over all thought process.  But yet at the same time so many questions are left unanswered. I am trying to picture what my life would have been like to view through the eyes of another. Now I know I can not do that, no can I change what has already happened. I just have to keep pressing on and not giving up hope.

But wait is there something left unanswered ? By all means yes, with that in mind here is a song that I feel fits the moment perfect. The song came out in 1992, by a band called DC Talk. This song is off of there “Free At Last” album. Here is the song.

Granted I have never been to prison like in the video, but in a sense we all go through our own prisons. Here is what the lyrics are. (chorus)
Some people gotta learn the hardway
I guess I’m the kinda guy
That has to find out for myself
I had to learn the hardway, Father
I’m on my knees and I’m crying for help

Now I’ve been high and I’ve been low
I’ve been some places that you will not go
I never thought there would come the day
When I wished I never would’ve lived this way
But I’ve been searching for a long, long time
I thought the devil was a friend of mine
I turned my back on everything that was true
And wasted years that belong to you

(repeat chorus)

It took so long for me to see
That I’m a victim of nature and me
Left to myself I realize
I am the maker of my own demise

But you accept me every time and again
And never mention just how selfish I’ve been
Why must it always take me so long to see
That I have fallen but you will forgive me?

(repeat chorus 2x)

The warning signs are like flares in the night
Still I proceed my greed is in spite of the fire
I know that’s bound to burn
Why is it that I always gotta learn…
The hardway, the hardway, I had to learn the hardway
The hardway, the hardway, I had to learn the hardway

We all go through own shares of ups and downs, but how many times do we feel captive almost like we are trapped. When i first heard the lyrics that is exactly what I thought. Now I know we eac deal with our own stress in different ways, but there is always an escape from what we are going through. Sometimes we just need to open our eyes and look around. Granted that might not always be the right answer, but the answer is out there. For me I write, others draw, even color. But is there another source of hope, maybe something we are missing. I do believe so. Let us look to the Bible for answers. Anything we are going through there is a peace and a comfort. Here is another video to explain what   I mean.

It is interesting how so many songs, can reflect through what we are feeling. But there is a lot of truth that is sometimes over looked within the Bible. Once again here are the lyrics. The song “Red Letters” came from the album Supernatural.

Pages filled with a holy message
Sealed with a kiss from heaven
On a scroll long ago
Phrases, words that were bound together
Now have the power to sever
Like a sword evermore

Heed the words divinely spoken
May your restless heart be broken
Let the supernatural take hold

(chorus)
There is love in the red letters
There is truth in the red letters
There is hope for the hopeless
Peace and forgiveness
There is life in the red letters
In the red letters

One man came to reveal a mystery
Changing the course of history
Made the claim he was God
Ageless, born of a virgin Mary
Spoke with a voice that carried through the years
It’s persevered

Heed the words divinely spoken
May your restless heart be broken
Let the supernatural take hold

(repeat chorus)

(bridge)
What You say moves me, revelation, come and take me
The more I look [the more I look] the more I see [the more I see]
The Word of God [the Word Of God] is what I need

Oh yeah, oh yeah
Yeah, it’s the book of love
Yeah, yeah, yeah
It’s the book of love

(repeat chorus)

Speak to me, breathe in me new life [x2]
Let Him in your heart [x4]

These are just a few of my thoughts and reflections on the matter. I know that God is still in control of every situation that does come along our way. Happy Reading, Adam

Life is like a garden

It is interesting how growing a garden is so similar to attending to life. Wait a darn second there why would I be writing a blog about gardens and sunshine in the middle of winter? Great question, there is so much more to a garden then just the season.  A season in the life of a garden s very similar to the season of our Christian walk. Galatians 6:9—Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. There is so much encouragement and truth behind the verse there that we seldom look beyond the time in which we are in.

By the way I am totally speaking to my self here in this situation also, but remember there is more to hope to follow at a latter time. John 15:4—No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I understand how the verse is talking about Jesus being the vine, but in a retro spec of the verse. I also feel like as if it is talking about a body of believers also. I am not just talking about a church here,  you can still have fellowship and grow with without the church as your main source of food for the branch in which we are. But also remember as the seeds are being planted not all seeds are watered, and nurtured.

A good example of this is in the book of Matthew 13:4-8– As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up.  Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root.  Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. Wait a gosh darn second here, how am I supposed to know what that means? If I had read that for the first time, I could see my walk with Christ in so many of those seeds, and to some point still do. I wonder more if the seeds I am planting are ending up in some of those areas, But like I said before all in due time do I believe  we will find out. Ok so what does that mean exactly,latter in Matthew Jesus gives us the explanation. Matthew 13:18-23— “Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path.  The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy.  But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.  The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful.  But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”

So you really have to ask your self where are you when it comes to the seeds? Is there a way out from the dry and barren desert, or are we to lost to seek shelter? When the enemy comes and tries to drag us down are we strong enough to fight back? Or are we going to roll over and accept defeat? I’m not trying to say we will not have rough patches, hell I can relate a lot to where some of the seed falls.  I almost think that everyday we choose in where to plant our own seed. Either in God or of the world? That in return friends is the question that we should be asking each and every day. John 15:5 really sums up that last part  ten fold better then I can.  John 15:5—“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”

Yes at times we will drift and venture out on our own, and no God is not just going to cast us away. But remember though the day you decided to accept Christ in your heart, you were choosing to plant your seed with God. Yes you may drift and blow in the wind, but remember where your root is truly based upon. In regards to spreading the seed and helping others, Gods timing for that. He will guide you with the help and encouragement of others, but the fight is still yours.Joshua 24:15— then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve….But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”

Pincess

You are my princess and I am your knight. I have had a long journey to find you. But now that I have found you, nothing will take that away from me. You have shown me so much already just in your character about who you are. In just the short time span, that the more we talk the harder it is to say goodbye for the night. I am so honored to know that you have chosen me out off all of the guys. To know that I am your knight and that you are my princess. But that each and everyday we will grow closer together not just as a couple but also as individualizes. We have open communication, and a trust. I love you so much. To the one that means so much to me that has brought a happiness back that has been lost. Thank you for being my princess.

A Knight

To be a knight there was a code of honor to be defined. The knight servant hood lied to the King. The knight often served on his own but was never alone, at the same time.A narrowing of the generic meaning “servant” to “military follower of a king or other superior”. Now what a interesting way to start a blog, if your thinking was the same as mine that would be the wrong answer.

So the question is why would I decide to write a blog about a knight? To some degree this is addressed to all the gentleman out there who may read this. Are we going into battle? And who are we to protect? Those might have been some of the question that followed that last thought. The answer is Yes we are going into a battle, but not the type of battle that you might be thinking.Yes again we are going to protect someone, but more on the second part a bit latter.

Now going with the first question of are we going into battle. Guys there is a constant battle going on around us, one that we might not be as common knowledge with. That answer is as follows,the battle that is going on is for the hearts of the princess. That is also who we are called to protect. The battle might include showing her, how much care and love that you have for her. Showing her that you would be willing to go beyond all doubts of what the common man have placed on her. Showing her that you are different, and that you do care, I am not just saying to lie down and play dead either. I am saying simply show her that you can be different then any other guy out there that she has ever meet. Show her that the values you have are not just based on gain for your self, but for the both you.

If the princess does turn you down do not give up hope. Keep pressing on fight for the princess that will have. Find the one that is worth the tears, the phone calls to other knights asking for there council. The fight is not yours alone. Some of you knights might just be called to protect and to never meet your princes, we need you just as much as anybody. Others may go looking for there princess, find her keep her and go through a whole battle just to save her from the dragon. The battle is not just of the earth though either, we need to be on guard with our minds thoughts, and actions as well. Watch what we are doing when our princess is not around. Keep our minds and actions in check at all times.

Now for the good part of this blog the battle. I am not talking about a physical battle with other knights over the princess,sometimes we might be called to do that aspect though. I am talking about a daily battle. A battle of the mind and thoughts, a battle that sometimes we may think that we are going through alone. But take hope fellow knights you are not alone. What am I referring to when I am talking about a battle of thoughts or of actions with the mind? I am talking about the actions of our eyes, when we see a beautiful woman our first instinct is to look at her right? Believe me I am just as guilty of this as the next guy. But remember you might already have that princess, what would she think if she saw you staring at the other girls? Or what if she did not see you does that make it ok? That does not make it ok, even to go and flirt even though in the back of your mind you are not doing anything wrong. The same goes entirely with what we even look at on the internet as well. How can we show them honor with what we are looking at on the net? I am not going to go into detail here but all of you guys know what I am talking about.

When you meet someone, and you start to date them and then eventually lead to marriage you are making a code of honor to them. They do not need to know what that code is, but you do. Keep your word as a knight and stick with it, if you make a promise do not back down. If you say I love you remember that. Do not say it unless you are ready to, and unless you mean it. Remember you are your own knight, but you are never alone. Happy Reading, Adam