Friendship

They say that the most common trend  of  friendship starts with two points of interest. I agree with that but there is always a few points that they seem to leave out. The steps that figure out the friendship after the first meeting.  Where is this blog coming from to start with? What could be the meaning behind such blog? Could it be how I feel about some friends of mine? I may use that term loosely in this blog also…

Where  I am traveling with the blog is an area of my life that for some reason seems to define me, or a part of me the part that I can never seem to place my finger on. For my personality I have always had that outgoing get along with everyone type, but I am way way more reserved then that. Not a lot of people know this, not a lot of people seem to want or get to know me better. I know that people have there own lives and everything like that But I am TIRED of always making the connection calls. Tired of seeing if the select few friends that I keep closer then others are always avail to meet up or to hang out.Forgive me in advance if it seems like I am bitching about this But its to the point where I feel like I am almost  second nature to a few of these friends that I have known for a while.

With the outgoing side of me you would think it would be easy to meet new friends and exchange info, but then with my quite reserved personality  I am a keep to my self person also. I will talk to anybody but to be able to say  “oh yeah we should meet up again ,whats your number ?” That is hard for me. trust is something  I have always strug;ed with, so that is why the trust factor is harder for me to reach out of my comfort zone to reach out but it seems with the closer the friendship the less likely they are to reach out to me. But for some reason to the same degree those who I may have known for a while say 5 or so years some less , those who the friendship has been established seem to do the same thing as well.

I DO REALIZE THAT THINGS GET BUSY, THAT PEOPLE DO HAVE OUTSIDE FRIENDSHIPS BEYOND MY OWN. THAT THEY HAVE JOBS. But to almost never make that first contact that part is really really starting to bug me more then ever before. Or saying to some effect or another “Oh I meant to call you, but was not sure if you were working.” Now do not get me wrong, I am honored to have the friendships that I do have, but to just stop all communication unless it is only one person trying to still reach out.. that is the part that hurts the most… Happy Reading, Adam

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Me a dad?

If anyone had told me five or six years ago that I would be a great  dad, I am not sure if I would have believed them. Ok wait let me retrace my steps here, I believe a few people did mention that to me or they would say “one day you are going to meet a single mom”. Well fast forward to the present and over a year ago I did meet a single mom with two girls, there ages were 2 and 7,and believe me not a day go buy that I am not proud when they call me dad.

Me and my fiance meet through a mutual friend of ours, and when she told me that she had two daughters my mind started to race with a lot of uncertainty. More along the lines of what would they think of me, would they accept me into there lives? When I first meet her two year old oh wait it was also the first time I had meet Melisa also, blind date and all. We meet at the zoo and she and her two year old were waiting outside for me. We went in and almost had this instant connection well me and Melisa did, me and her two year old bonded  latter. The desert dome was the first stop and right away her two year old was asking me to pick her up to see the animals. Then we went to see the lions and boy did I ever feel bad, see Annabell was riding along in her wagon being good and I was pushing her I let go of the handle and it bonked her right on the head, I felt so bad but looking back that is when I knew she was going to be my little girl.  Well and Kiari the 7 year old the first time I meet her before i got to the house the only reason I knew which one was there’s here she is jumping up and down all excited to see me and I had never seen her as of yet.

Well let me tell you over the course of the year and our bonding more the adventures we have been on not just me and the girls, but as a whole all of us this has been one crazy year. Each day it seems like more and more but it has only been a year and a half. Each time they call me dad a little smile comes across the face of mine, like “oh yeah they are talking to me”… Happy reading Adam 182191_3859368855353_1216555853_n

Hello or Xin chào

This is going to be my first ever bilingual blog so let the adventure begin, but believe me it will be worth the read. Now for those who may not be aware in the summer of 2007 I went to Vietnam and spent a month there. While I was there I had an opportunity to teach english to my students.  But I also got to teach them about a Saviors love for them. I am going to share the gospel message in both English and Vietnamese.  My prayer for anyone who may read this is that you will read this with both an open heart and willing spirit. If you have any questions after reading this or want more information feel free to contact me . Through this blog, or my e-mail address which is zikasad@gmail.com .

 

Điều này sẽ được blog bao giờ song ngữ đầu tiên của tôi để cuộc phiêu lưu bắt đầu, nhưng tôi tin rằng nó sẽ có giá trị đọc. Bây giờ cho những người có thể không được nhận thức trong mùa hè năm 2007, tôi đã đi đến Việt Nam và đã dành một tháng có. Trong khi tôi đã có tôi đã có một cơ hội để dạy tiếng Anh cho học sinh của tôi.  Nhưng tôi cũng đã nhận để dạy cho họ về một tình yêu vị cứu tinh cho họ. Tôi sẽ chia sẻ thông điệp Tin mừng bằng cả tiếng Việt và tiếng Anh.   Cầu nguyện của tôi cho bất cứ ai có thể đọc này là rằng bạn sẽ đọc này với một trái tim rộng mở và sẵn sàng tinh thần. Nếu bạn có bất kỳ câu hỏi sau khi đọc sách này hoặc muốn biết thêm thông tin vui lòng liên hệ với tôi. Thông qua blog này, hoặc địa chỉ e-mail của tôi là zikasad@gmail.com.

 

Romans 3:23— for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, That means we have all sinned-sin can be defined as doing wrong, lying, stealing, cheating evil thoughts it can all be defined as sin and so much more. We all fall short of the glory of God is missing the mark. Picture God as a bullseye by our sins we miss the mark.

Romans 5:8—But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.– due to the wickedness of this whole world Christ took the sins of the world upon him self and died on the cross for us. He choose to die for us or on our behalf. God had compassion on us to send His Son to earth to die for us. He came into this world as a baby, and he died on the cross a sinner’s death. In order that we could have eternal life. But what is eternal life?

John 3:16– For God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life. Through that we have learned that no matter how many times we mess up and sin that God will still love us and forgive us no matter what. Romans 6:23—For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Oh by the way the gift is a free gift that you never have to repay.

Romans 9:9-10—If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.– It is as simple as asking the Lord into your heart and He will save you. If you just say something as simple as saying Lord forgive me for my sins I am sorry and I want you to be a part of my life from this day forward He will forgive you and He will come into your life. That means He will be with you every day. Does that mean life will get easier, I am not saying that ,what I am saying is knowing that God will always be with you from that moment on.

 

Người La Mã 3:23—cho tất cả đã phạm tội và mùa thu ngắn của vinh quang của Thiên Chúa, mà có nghĩa là chúng tôi có tất cả đã phạm tội-sin có thể được định nghĩa là làm sai, nằm, ăn cắp, gian lận ác suy nghĩ nó có thể tất cả được định nghĩa là tội lỗi và nhiều hơn nữa. Chúng tôi tất cả mùa thu ngắn của vinh quang của Thiên Chúa thiếu các nhãn hiệu. Hình ảnh Thiên Chúa như một bullseye bởi tội lỗi của chúng tôi, chúng tôi bỏ lỡ đánh dấu.

Người La Mã 5:8—nhưng Thiên Chúa thể hiện tình yêu của riêng của mình cho chúng tôi ở đây: trong khi chúng tôi vẫn còn tội nhân, Chúa Kitô đã chết cho chúng ta. – do sự gian ác của thế giới toàn bộ này Chúa Kitô đã diễn những tội lỗi của thế giới khi anh ta tự và chết trên thập giá đối với chúng tôi. Ông muốn chết cho chúng tôi hoặc thay mặt chúng tôi. Thiên Chúa đã có lòng từ bi vào chúng tôi để gửi con trai của ông để trái đất để chết cho chúng tôi. Ông đến vào thế giới này như là một em bé, và ông đã chết trên thập tự giá của một kẻ có tội chết. Để mà chúng tôi có thể có sự sống đời đời.  Nhưng sự sống đời đời là gì?

John 3:16–đối với Thiên Chúa yêu thương thế mà ông đã của mình chỉ begotten Sơn rằng ai tin tưởng vào anh ta sẽ không hư mất nhưng có cuộc sống mai mai. Thông qua rằng chúng tôi đã học được rằng không có vấn đề làm thế nào nhiều lần chúng tôi mess lên và tội lỗi mà Thiên Chúa sẽ vẫn yêu thương chúng ta và tha thứ cho chúng tôi không có vấn đề gì. Người La Mã 6:23—cho tiền công của tội lỗi là sự chết, nhưng các món quà của Thiên Chúa là sự sống đời đời trong Chúa Giêsu Kitô Chúa chúng ta. Oh by the way món quà là một món quà miễn phí mà bạn không bao giờ phải trả nợ.

Người La Mã 9:9-10—nếu bạn tuyên bố với miệng của bạn, “Chúa Giêsu là Chúa,” và rằng trong trái tim của bạn rằng Thiên Chúa sẽ lớn lên anh ta từ cõi chết, bạn sẽ được lưu. 10 Đối với trái tim của bạn mà bạn tin tưởng và được chứng minh, và nó là với miệng của bạn rằng bạn tuyên xưng Đức tin của bạn và sẽ được lưu. – nó đơn giản như yêu cầu Chúa vào trái tim của bạn và ông sẽ giúp bạn tiết kiệm. Nếu bạn chỉ nói một cái gì đó đơn giản như nói Chúa tha thứ cho tôi cho tội lỗi của tôi tôi xin lỗi và tôi muốn bạn là một phần của cuộc sống của tôi từ ngày này chuyển tiếp ông sẽ tha thứ cho bạn và ông sẽ đi vào cuộc sống của bạn. Đó có nghĩa là ông sẽ với bạn mỗi ngày. Điều đó có nghĩa là cuộc sống sẽ có được dễ dàng hơn, tôi không nói rằng, những gì tôi nói là biết rằng Thiên Chúa sẽ luôn luôn với bạn từ thời điểm đó trên.

 

 

 

Darkness Vs Light

Darkness seems like a better place to hid and shallow up .But yet is that where we are supposed to be? What drives us into the darkness? I feel like part of that could be explained through our psyche of the darkness is a covering, what I mean by that is this. When we are growing up in our day to day lives and we got scarred at night what did we  do? We use to cover our heads with a blanket hide from whatever scarred us right? Ok and as we got older instead of hiding under a blanket we use to hide in the shadows. Or we hid our feelings deep down inside in the darkness, afraid to let them shine through for who we truly are.

But what if there was another option another approach? What if we came into the light? When I was growing up I use to have a nightlight that was in my room for when I got scared, I am sure a lot of us had a light of some kind.and as we grew up we were used to the light being around us.For the light provides comfort a sense of security, a sense of belonging. But let us remember that the light shows us as we are. It is harder to hide the scars that have been built up. The light can provide a sense of healing. A sense of true identity, but yet the darkness tries to cover that up and hide that.

So why would we wonder what the other side  would feel like? We all no matter who we are have that deep down inside feeling to be bad at least once, or another way to view it is we all have secrets. Wait we all have secrets? Yes we all do,some of the secrets will never come into the light and others will. Oh yeah by the way, the day we die all those secrets that we hold so close will be discovered, and oh yeah another thought on that …God already knows. Happy reading, Adam

John Wayne and fans….

jwWhat does it mean to be a John Wayne fan? That thought raises in interesting question, Do you have what it takes to be a fan?That thought raises in interesting question, Do you have what it takes to be a fan? Now by no means am I talking about just the day to day life but do you try and challenge other friends with John Wayne trivia? Do you try and get the collectibles, or try and own all of his movies. And at the same time debate within your own mind about getting the same movies over again, just due to a special “documentary” that you do not own?

Now I for my own collection have a wide variety of all sorts of collectables, including collector plates,movies,pictures and a monopoly game. But I know and have talked to people that have huger collections then that, but does that make me or does that make them a fan? That is an interesting thought to try and process, but we need to go a little deeper and examine more of the fan psyche.A fan, sometimes also called aficionado or supporter, is a person who is enthusiastically devoted to something, such as a band, a sports team or entertainer. I think Leonard Maltin worded it best what could be described as the John Wayne escential fan…..”To many people [John Wayne] represents the quintessential American.” To many he defined the American Hero, the all american cowboy, the true hero of the west. But also the defender of the rights and the person who would speak his mind and not care what others thoughts. The one who would speak up for the little guy, the hero we all wish our dads may have been, or for that matter who we wish our dads were.

Now for me It all started when I was six years old, I remember watching The Quiet Man from 1952, I always said that is who I wanted to be when I grew up. I think i was the only one who went as John Wayne that year for Halloween. I still remember walking up top someones house saying trick or treat in my best John Wayne style and on there tv from the corner of my eyes I noticed Sons of Katie Elder 1965. And to  think I was born 3 years after his death, I think if I had grown up during World War 2 I would have honestly thought of him as one of the faceless heroes of the war. I would have probably became a republican and known where my vote would have stayed. There is still a side in which we as fans growing up in the latter years did not get a sense of during his career side. And I think that was to have witnessed that first hand. I have hears he created autograph cards to hand out to fans instead of singing every autograph,I would have been ok with that. Lots of his costars on both side of the fence had the most respect for him. From, a actor to an activtest to defending the rights of the nation in which He loved there will only be one John Wayne. And as actor who spoke on behalf of the fans who made movies he knew his fans would enjoy that only speaks volumes.

Wondering

So as I sit here and type i start to wonder what life may look like through a new set of eyes, As if someone could see into our true heart of hearts and know what we are thinking about ,and what our true motive may be even though we could never share. I guess a better question that I would have to ask myself through that process would be “why have I been feeling that way lately?” Do I sense that some people are not being honest with me? Or do I sense a stronger power inside of my self that want to comes out ….yet I am scared to let that side through.

Before we get any further, yes I know what some may be thinking that know me, and you might be partially right, Yes I am aware that God does know all of that knowledge but what if we could only possess  one-tenth of that. Would we always use that for the betterment of the world or would we turn around and use that to hurt those who claim that they love us the most and care for us? To be honest i am not sure what may have caused this random spark of insanity, but it has been having me think a lot lately on that subject. Just taking more of an observer lately just watching the things around me, not always having to feel like I need to voice my thoughts. I think someone worded it best a few weeks ago and called me a “devils advocate”. That is in interesting role to take into society, but to be honest more and more people need someone in there lives like that in order to fully process better.

We have always envisioned that little angle on one side and the little devil on the other. What if it was just one though not two?What if we honestly spoke what was on your minds instead of laying back and taking the scared view of what others may think? Eminem said something that I think we need to all think about “You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ’em But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ’em Cause ain’t no way I’ma let you stop me from causing mayhem When I say I’ma do something I do it,” WE all need to have that thought process but yet so many of us do not know how to step up and truly stand up and say that or act that way without feeling regret or shame or afraid that we are going to step on someone toes…. I would rather have someone be point blank honest with me forget the feelings being hurt and tell me the truth vs hiding back and trying to shed it another way,

Does that mean I am going to start taking that stand? I am hoping to start doing that more and more and you know what if your feelings get hurt tell me. I would rather be able to talk it out then one person walking mad or even worse loosing a friendship instead of “bitching “bout it through other people. I am done doing that as well those of you who are closest to me know I have a hard time speaking up not any more. If you do not like the truth do not come into the light. Happy Reading Adam

New Zealand 2005 Part 1

What an interesting way to start a blog right? Well you would think so considering that it is now 2013. Let me paint the picture if I can about a trip that I took the summer of 2005. And the adventure that lead me up to that point. So be prepared and make sure you have your passport and  a suitcase packed for an adventure of a lifetime. Does that mean you are you going to leave the comfort and solitude of you living rooms? No it means you are going to be taking this Adventure with me.

To be honest with everyone and my self I am not sure what even created the desire and urge to travel to New Zealand, yeah looking back I could use the whole Lord of the Rings vibe for the reason why I wanted to go, but there is more to this then that. I felt a desire deep within my heart to go to New Zealand from the very moment I heard that there was a chance. I was at a summer camp being a leader when I first felt God leading me to New Zealand. I was doing my one on one time with God on a prayer walk that the camp had just put in. and I felt a rush or a chill unlike any other I had ever felt. It was right then and there that I knew that God was calling me to leave the US and travel to NZ. When I got home from camp i told my idea to my mom she asked me when I was thinking of going and I said next summer . I started back at school that fall of 2004 and I found out a few different groups lead missions trips to NZ, but I knew that mine was supposed to be longer then two weeks or even a month for that matter. I was starting to get discouraged and give up on this idea of going. But then I found the group, they are called Adventures In Missions,what a great title for a group. They did go to NZ and they went for two months, covering over both Islands, and doing a lot of ministry along the way.

By this point I was nervous but I did decide to call and just get some more information about the project and what information I could gather.The representative that I spook with opened my eyes to going even more then I thought by the end of conversation and some prayer that we were both convinced by the Spirit that I was going to be going that up coming summer. I still had to fill out the application and get approved but I had no doubt that God would be opening the doors to me going. By the time I had filled out the application to be going I was still a little unsure of how and where the fiances where going to come from and also I was getting a tad bit nervous also.  In December of 2004 due o grades I was asked to step down from school, was that the blessing in disguise that I needed to get headed in the right direction or was this God’s way of closing the doors towards me going?

Look back the whole having to step down from school, was both a blessing and a road block from  me going but my hope and thought process had not given up yet on the idea,  By mid February or March after lots of prayers and talks with the organization I was going with God had finally opened up the doors for me to go. I had gotten accepted,So next the part I struggled with the most the idea of raising the money for me to go on this once and a lifetime trip. The idea of asking people to support me on this one and a lifetime chance, but the flood gates where opened wide with support. Support from people that I was not even expecting to receive from. I felt more and more at ease with everything my job had agreed to give me the off from work, and my friends where continually praying .As the time drew near towards me going, I decided to meet with some close friends and even a few people I did not know and have a night of prayer and worship at my church.  It was so encouraging to see everyone come out and pray with me.

So the day finally came for me and boy was I was nervous my first flight by my self, and before I left to go to New Zealand I was going to Georgia for training.On May 25th 2005 that is when the journey began and boy was I nervous. I transferred planes once before arriving in Georgia, there I meet one of my team members she was nervous as well but we were both excited to see where God was going to lead us on this trip. when we got to the airport there we meet the rest of not just our team, but others as well that were going on this adventure also to other locations.reports_send_binary We had some interaction through e-mails before meeting each other but this was the first face to face. Some had known each other before through school and what not but for the most of us it was the first time meeting. While the rest of the team was on their way to the training camp I got my first true test of servant hood, I was asked to ride in a truck with a team member of the organization with all the luggage . Talk about first eye opening experience, but also i was wondering why God had placed me in this position. The thing that I learned and that I had already known, was that god has always given me the opportunity to click or connect with those who i have not previously known. Oh random fact about that journey the turck broke down and we had to wait until someone could come and help us. The last time I had really ate anything was the day before and the time I got to eat again lol was about 24 hours latter or so it seemed to me.

All of that travel and arriving at the training camp was on 5/26/2005, over the next few days there, we learned a multitude of drimes in which we performed through the trip.reports_send_binary (1) reports_send_binary (2) That was a learning withing its own. But we  learned them. A few days we did not see the point but through it all we learned team building and how to work well as a team.  We really bonded the few days we were in training learning what some of our strengths and weakness were . we learned out a lot more over the time as well. It came time for our team to carry the cross. but the crazy part was that we had to go through the obstacle course and the cross came with us. There were many stories of people overcoming fears as we did this together. Taking authority over the enemy in all the lies and deceit he tells us, when he says that “we can’t do it” or “we will only let the team down” or “you’re going to fail”, we confronted those issues and instead spoke truth out over ourselves like, “we can do all things through Christ,” and “I am the head and not the tail,” and “If God is for me, who can be against me?” We made it all the way through the course with the cross and made it over a climbing wall, through a hanging tire, over a hurdle, across a balance beam, and at the end, we realized that it is the CROSS that has brought us together.  On June 2 we started our “never ending journey ” lol that is what it seemed like anyway. We traveled from Georgia, to Texas to LAX and then an international flight to New Zealand and then from Auckland down to Christchurch. One of the more interesting key factors to the flight was when we were boarding our international flight I sat down on the plane and put on the head set that was plugged into the radio system and the song playing was “leaving on a jet plane” . We all took a moment and prayed that as we were about to leave everything that we were used to that God was going to do amazing things through our trip and through each other.

So on Friday, June 3, 2005 we arrived in New Zealand and let me tell you we were tired. BUt the moment we had arrived at the house was well worth it. We pretty much walked in put our stuff away and went straight to sleep. but after an adventure and a half and then finding out that our schedule started the next day wow.But at the same time we were getting excited,