As I am trying to come up with a title for this posting, I am more wondering as to what have I have been thinking about. Or for that matter even dreaming about so keep in mind with this posting as in others, the views that I express may more be an inner feeling more than how I am truly feeling.
For the past few nights as I lay awake and wonder if the path that I am heading is the direct path, I do not sense of peace I do not sense a comfort, could this be sings as that I am going down the wrong direction? Or could this be more of an uncomfortable feeling that I can not seem to shake? I have not been my self I have been more in a different space. I feel as if it is an alternative reality looking through the world through ‘ rose coloured glasses”. But yet not seeing the posative only negative. What has caused this feeling to come upon me as of late? Why this sudden mixed emotion? Those are questions that I can not seem to answer.
I try and seek Your word for wisdom or for a window open, but alas I can not seem to find that. Give me the fire that I once had, give me the direction that You want me to venture towards, don’t leave me alone and scared.’I gotta keep singing gotta keep praising Your name You’re the one who’s keeping my heart beating I gotta keep singing I gotta keep praising Your name
That’s the only way that I’ll find healing” But through that I still feel scared and alone, yes Christ is in my life and knows every thought before we even think it or say it, but yet He still gives us these trials to go through. To test our faith to see how devoted we are? I know never say the Lord is tempting us, but at times is this not what it feels like?
Then out of nowhere like a flash of lighting, brought back to the reality that we are meant to go through hard times. But are we ever alone? Are we meant to go through hard times even though we have people beside us able to reach out to. but not knowing how? Not knowing how to ask for help without making it seem like nothing is wrong. Where do we start, where does the trust factor start? How does trust work what does it look like? Happy Reading Adam
I know there are people that i can trust but at times it seems hard to open up when ‘you” do not know what is going on for sure.
What does the first step look like into the dreams that at times we may find impossible? Well a good starting point to all dreams no matter the size is through prayer, and through prayer all things can be accomplished correct? But are we supposed to just sit around and wait and see what God does or does He want us to take action and rise above as well? I believe in all circumstances we need a little bit of both categories, God will guide our paths. As a reminder in the movie Prince Of Egypt Moses is scared to confront the ruler, God reminds Moses that He will go with, But it will be Moses stepping out in faith to let Gods chosen ones free. So in order to dream then do we need to step out and step up? Or do we need more of a reliable source of the dream that has already started to have been paved before us?
In some cases what if the dream has not been placed before us? Well try to find a dream that has not been already dreamed. Well that was a cheep answer more like here is your $5.00 dollar answer. The dream may have already taken place but what does it mean to follow your dream? To be able to say you sought it out to the very end, that could be another story. There are a few examples throughout history and some quotes about those infected about the dreams…
All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.—Walt Disney
“Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.” —-James Dean
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”—-Gail Devers
One of the best examples ever about a dream is through the life of Martin Luther King Jr, now his dream was to give a voice for the negro people who were being oppressed. Similar to the Moses situation, God called MLK to rise above and be the voice for the voiceless. He raised a group of people to go march to the nation’s capitol and he gave his famous “I have a dream” speech. “I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.”
Has that dream happened yet? What are some of your dreams let them be heard do not be afraid to voice your dream for others to hear you. Happy Reading, Adam and remember let your dream be heard.
In Sunday school a few weeks ago we were having a discussion about the past and what we can do it move on , and see what direction God can take us in if we allow him to have open availability to our hearts and minds. But yet for some reason or another the quote from “The Lion King” kept coming to mind, ” Oh yes the past does hurt, but the way I see it you can either run from it or learn from it.” But in truth can you run from God without Him already knowing about the situation? He already knows the very thoughts going through our minds, He already knows the desires of the heart. So yes He does know all of this, but yet for the same very reason which has still stumped me, it could mean the reality is it could be our free will which produces this feeling within us. But that is called being stubborn. I think that is why it takes us so long to learn lessons that should come so easy to us, but in another thought process how many times do we wear a mask? Here is what I mean….’I’m not afraid I’m not ashamed I’m not to blame Welcome to the masquerade I’m not ashamed I’m not afraid I’m not okay Welcome to the masquerade Welcome to the masquerade ”
By no means am I saying we should wear masks in order to shape how we feel with our hearts. But if we do not somehow face our past and confront that which may or not be blocking us from rising above when then shall we? The Bible says in Proverbs 3:5-6 paints a clear picture of what is trying to be said here. ‘Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight” So then are we supposed to rise up and face our past, or are we supposed to stand by and let it fade? But in another retro speck, let us remember that Christ has taken the past with Him to Calvary. Happy Reading, Adam
So a thought that has been going though my mind as of lately is this : are we just a figment or a glimpse of who we really in turn could be? Now what can I mean by this statement that is the truth of the question, but it is something that we all need to develop within our minds. I have been struggling a lot with this as of lately and it really has been making me wonder, what type of impact am I going to play into the world once I am gone. Am I going to be going anywhere soon, no but it still makes you wonder. What will the legacy be what will we be remembered for, do our past friends or those that claimed to be friends ever think I wonder how we are doing more on a personal friendship level? Instead of the level of which it is based already, or I guess when thinking about it applies to friendships current as well.
I know it may seem as if I am trying to complain or even for that matter gain sympathy of some sort, but in all reality that is not what I am going for when I do write about topics as of this nature. It just surprises me how real a friendship can be one moment and then next moment seem so fake. I do not feel as if I am the one only one who struggles and goes through this type of dealing, but it often weighs heavy on my heart. Anyway hope this makes sense to someone out there. Happy Reading, Adam
Where has the time gone from one blog to the next? Well like most of my other writers out there we have all had busy summers. Yes while some have had other chances to write, I my self have not until recent. But I thought now is the chance to update and fill everyone in on what has been going on. As some of you may have remember the last time I wrote I was engaged and getting nervous about the wedding, well on June 7 me and Melissa did get married and we also have our own apartment now as well. Along with the two girls of course, they were the flower girls in the wedding. It was a wonderful wedding, all of our friends and family and loved ones where there to celebrate with us. After the wedding we took a family trip up to Mall of America, it was a great family vacation on the way back stopped at Adventureland. It was the first time the girls had every been to a amusement park of that size. Over all a great summer, now it is back to reality back to school and back to work, lol well it was back to work sooner but at times I wish it had been a longer break. Well this has been a update for now more latter Happy Reading, Adam
To be honest it has been a while since I felt this way, and I can honestly admit that feeling. There has been so much doubt going on in within my life to be able to stand tall and admit that I am on top of the world? There is honestly no other greater feeling at all. But yet at the same moment at a very blink of the eye I could be at the bottom again. Does that mean I am thinking negative or wanting to feel or think that way? The answer of course by all meaning is NO! But when you think about life from an open point of view then you tend to see life the way it is supposed to be seen.
But does that not play into our thinking process at all? Or is just a mentality that we set our self up for. If we always think from a plus side attitude then yes we will be able to achieve more things, but life is not always about plus. There is also the negative side as well. How does our faith play an importance into that thinking is the next type of question we need to evaluate. Those with a faith background have a knowledge that God is going to overcome all things and that with our faith we will conquer all. But yet let us remember one thing where does faith start?
Happy Reading Adam
It is by Shania Twain it is called Today is your day. It is a super encouraging song, and very uplifting. The basis of the song is talking about how that no matter what may come in your way, that each and everyday we have a fresh start. And that we should not be let down by the small things, that we need to get back up when we get knocked down. I have included a link for the YouTube
video for the song… if you are having a bad day, just wish you could receive a hug, consider this a hug from me to you. Happy Reading/Watching, Adam
“Ah, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.” But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD. Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “Now, I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
How many times have we told God no just because we are scared as to where he wants us to go? How many times have we backed down on sharing our faith even with our own family members for the same reason? To many different times to count right? But if we really think about it what is holding us back? He says that He will rescue us and that he is with us. But we are still scared the main question is why? Now I am not just talking missions on the global level I am talking about local missions as well. Here let me put it another way.
18Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
Now that makes more sense right? Still have some doubts? It is ok to be scared but to remember that Christ has a plan for each and every one of us. We do not need to ever leave the country to make disciples of all nations do we? Of course not some of us maybe called over seas permanently but others of us have not been called over seas at all. God can still use us no matter where we are. Let me end with this thought answer it for your self’s.
“Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives him or her patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?”
There is a place in the journey of life that we all come to at least once. That is always going to be with us as a memory. Seldom though as our journey in life continues we forget about that place. What is that place I am referring to? Where is there comfort, strength, and forgiveness? Where grace flows freely?
There is a place where I am beautiful again.My shame has been washed away, I am clothed in white before your eyes. I am free, I offer praise to Your name. I bow before the throne, You hold me in Thine arms as a child. Your grasp will never let me go. Despite where I have been, Your love is still there to capture me.
There was a place that was full of darkness, no light was able to shine through. Yet Your love broke through the enemy gates to FREE me. You knew I was still Yours despite my shame to even turn to You for help. You offered me drink when other turned away. You offered me food when others laughed at me. Your love taught me to heal, forgive and offer forgiveness to those who I hurt.
There is a place I am going to again one day. One day I will be with You forever. No eye can imagine what that place will be like, or even start to dream about it. But I know that I will be with those who have gone before me. To listen to there story, to be whole once again. Where the enemy can not snatch me from Your grasp. Forever I will reign with You.
There I am walking along in the journey of life, and You remind me. ” Adam you are mine, nothing will take you from My grasp. From that day when you asked me into your life, I have been working on your heart. From the inside-out My love has shown to others, lives you may not know that you touched. Through Me your words have affected those who needed to hear it. I have a plan, I am not done with you yet.”
Hope this finds encouragement to those who may need it. Remember you are not alone. God is walking right along side of you, lift your eyes to heaven. And He alone will be your strength. Happy Reading Adam